and we met...

and i still cant stop smiling.

oh :")

lom gik nak update tok. tunggu ah.
ehehehehe

3 days

he's coming
omg omg.

*ngelep mata selaju 60kelip/minit*

omg.

gitok asa duhal o.
hee.


dear you,
i am amazed at what you do to my heart.

i think i have found that little piece of puzzle that you have been looking for. mbak sitok puzzle besar kitak ya tek. ehehe

oof sesemon i lok.
nguuu

makeover

IT IS TIME FOR BLOG MAKEOVERRRRR yayyyy

nggu lok. lom lom.
epp boh koat ilak refresh.
lommmm kata saya ehh.

salah ya, ukan F4, F5.
wu


balit lok!! karoke lam moto time~

*dashing out*
(ingat sik iklan Sensasi Dashing, make baju sloa leather. mun sik leather sik dashing la tek ngohoho)

sigek gik iklan poda nok
tingtong
"deez, kawan nak jumpa"
tedede dede de de det det detdet *sambil "kawan" mpuan nait tanggak*
*si laki senggaut2 berpoda ngarey2 (smpt di slow motion serbuk poda ya on air)*

kakya mpuan depan pintu ya
poda gugok
kakya nyaduak netak poda gugok
aih, apa kah lucu
ahahaha

so soalan nya?
siapa watak utama?
si "kawan"?
si Deez?

duak duak salah


si IBU nok mukak pintuu!
nya sorang ada dialog koh.
ahahaha

aih, maka ku patut nya dah setup karoke lam keta tek
TATA! (mena2 kali tok)

eh, ingat sik tokrang nok..

EHHHH blt lok hihiihi

*poof!*

i have been thinking

after years and years and years and years of being selfless,
is it so wrong for me to be a little bit selfish for once?
i don't think so.
because i am blissfully happy.
and i deserve to be happy.

yelo!

helo suma

i have noticed that i am a one-topic at a time blogger, as i only blog whenever something happens/updates around me. but some of my fav bloggers, like fieza, lynn, farah (yoseh kitak tiga cameo pliss :D) and some others, they blog about their daily life, what they did for the day, and stuff like that. so this is my attempt to blog on what was happening yesterday. although now i know, everyday passes by, but i seldom have something great to be done for the day, except that i always wait for the night to come, and wait for erkhem2!! :D

so yesterday, papaji came home from Sibu outstation, and mamaji n i went to the airport to fetch him. the traffic was like ngauuu, jammm gila, esp at the traffic lights, after the simpang 4 ada maybank blah kerek (maseh ka maybank, sebut ajak la). aok, at jalan laksamana cheng ho. yalah, it is after 5pm, ppl were going home from work. and it was so long since i drove an auto car, so i was like nabes2, takut melajak vroom2. tp okei jak pun hee.


aaanyway, when we reached the airport, while waiting for papaji to arrive, i snapped meself, using timer. haha. lupak ada urg kerek kanan, but lalekla. i put the cam on the boot, and while waiting for the timer to go off, supan2 la juak rasa nyihihihi.

im holding the car's audio remote (so my parents akan dgr lagu dipileh oleh Dj Oon sahaja)
by the way, my pants only cost me rm9.90! :D n i loveee it.

i like being alone at the back seat, but i like it more if my siblings are with me. this is what i did at the back seat

belaguuu! with the remote as a mic. oof! nang kaong2 saya dibelakang

so after picking up papaji, we went to bombay masala @ matang jaya, mam roti sekaya. there goes my dinner :)

Bombay Masala

papaji & mamaji

nescafe tarik pahit saya, the pahiter the powerer eheh

although i had kopi during dinner, i slept early last night. kopi doesnt work for me anymore, i can still drink aek mati the whole day and spend the night awake till next morning. so i guess suma ya depends on *here* (sambil menunjuk kepala sendiri). i woke up, when Mr The One called, tp i totally forgot what we talked (sowee hee) gik mamun2. but i woke up at 530 for suboh, and went online, and buzz him. then we chatted till i was off to work this morning. we're wearing all blacks for the day. so i wore my kebaya nyonya with loose pants n black heels. hihihi.

aok gamba tok bujat plis. saya ingga juak. hhaha

mmh!

=)

these booties are made for walking

bulan ini saya akan membeli kasut baru/booties/boots.

pa tek my boots dah rosux.

but this time i wanna look for yg pelek kit/super high/quirky/striking kaler or yg urg sikda asa nak make. nyohohoho. bila lagi mau berani nak o? umo 25 la hehehe.

lagipun apalah fashion if you dont experiment.

yum. its the end of the year girls. oof! fieza pun da bebeli sandal baru o za o. jeles amek. auw lah (bak kata farah)

halu

oof! indu eh nak update, i just got back from my daro-matu trip.
gila bes :)
just sakit belakang mbak dudok 12jam lam van. dudok sik renah gik ya.
anyway, i cant update so much right now, altho there are so much going on..
ill come back later oki. nway, here are some sky/sunset/sunrise/cloudy/banjer/rainy moments dari the field trip.
lak2 edit yg lain, so hard to pick! suma are like (@.@)!
muah!

by the way, while in Daro, Mr The One ajak going steady.
uu, it looks like he might know what ill say
tp i wont say anything yet
until 2 minggu agik
he might need to re-propose, tp awal2 mbak cooler, in case mek cair. oof!
tp i have some "intebiu" questions juak nak ask before apa2.
hehehe. tunggu lah, apa crita klak.

wiuwiuwiu

cloudy. gamba amik dari dlm speedbot

encek abang becerita ngan dak sue

dipadah masok tv alu suma peace :) hee.sori geng mek voolak ajak

duak kings, main lawan mata sapa kelep dolok kalah

sunset

kolig keja saya, begamba ngan dak awan

sunset/pond bordered with penjan van

dari penjan bilit mek oang

gi umah uncle sue, mamam2 lunch :) kampong ya after ujan lebat, so river overflowed, jadi kena jalan lam aek

in a rush

"It came over me in a rush
When I realized that I love you so much"

ngu. the power of a song. lagikla RnB. agikla sora kedak gelumbaeng.

panas asa dibah mata.
jantong debar-debar.
ati sik tentu.
kedak ngiluk2 jak denyut.
apakah?
rindu kah?

hm!!

sebak eyy
ngu :'(

*asyik menjeling jam*

'what you always want, i want it too'


so, lets.

5 days

ill be gone for 5 days
field trip to matu/daro


well well
bagus juak pat get away, main rah rural village


___________________

i am numb now.

plis dont push my button
because i wont sway
because i wont stay

dont let ur hopes up
because im afraid it might crash you
because im not right for you
because i wont be true

it is too late
seriously it is too late
after all this
you will ask
'now what?'
i wont say
i wont sway
i wont stay
it is too late baby
it is too late

hate me
trash me
forget me
if you need to
because i dont wanna be lonely
i just wanna be alone

numb, i am numb now
poke me, squeeze me, slice me, tear me

i wont sway
i wont stay
plis dont push my button

i am numb now.

_______________________

hehe, pat molah lagu dimpun da saya tok mun di pupok2.hmm.

toodles!

tunggu ok

today i will post a new entry with super jumbo updates with super many pics (sengan ne mampu ku aplod). woof woof! watch this space!

i never thought

i never thought any of these would happen,
especially to me.

i never thought about it,
because i thought, i am done.

but
what if they came
what if they say they want you
what if they say they care
what if they are the ones that you have been looking for
what if they say things you wanna hear, things you wanna know
what if they are all the what ifs

what if i say 'this is the first that i've been so happy after a long time'
what if i say 'this is the one'
what if i say 'this is everything that i've ever wanted'
what if i say 'i want this'

i want this.
just give me time.
just give us time.
insyaAllah

finishing line. wooh! // happiness in magazines

horey
today is the final day of my weight/inch loss challenge!
pics will be posted later, with stats and stuff. right now im too happy (about other thing) to weigh or to measure meself. huhuh. later a.
oof!


mood: lovestruck
listening to:love songs

:)
:)

last night by az yet

tringat ngan sue.
she managed to convert lagu sexy* itu kepada nursery rhyme babies2 bila nya tersasol time karoke in the car.
camne tek babe?

i shaw the shun, the moon hahahahaha (i saw the sun, the moon)

saja bah. indu. pa sik jadi kua tek huhuh. sleep tight babes.
+memuncongkan jungo segitiga

kedong online, alu la meyoutube vclip lagu tok. yak! lucu da. p ada mpuan body fit! @.@ second girl, nok mbut pendek ya. hahaha ingat time skolah ehs. hahah baru saya ingat saya minat sora sapa lam grup ya. hahahahah eeekk

tp this part of the lyric:
"i drank your wine, as you taste mine".
i assumed u guys drank the same wine. nak?minum la dari cangker kedirik o. yerrr. kenjet. hahahah

jian, tangga vclip tok ngan vclip hard to say im sorry. hahah. kompom dapat tangga muka yg sora bunyi bass ya. namanya siap ada nama tgh as a bass. kenny "bassman" terry. ahaha. lucu eh. sigek gik, dah almost abis lagu ya, sorang ya siap mukak kot half, kotan geram. ahahaha. uuuhh nang layan lah sora2 sidak ya ehhh.mmh!


*sexy - mild description of lucah ngahaha (for this song only)

hari ini hari selase

mmm

uhu

:/


~~~~~~

lalala :)

the one that i read over and over and over and over and..

helo.
x cukup satu, duak entry, x cukup duak, tiga.
hehehe. been reading my fav book for like the umpteenth time.

tada! hee. stories we could tell, by tony parsons.well, some might find this book very boring, some might say 'bole la, ok ok' or 'okla juak', but i say 'mek shuka gila!!'. the weird thing is, as much as i love this book, (and of course his other lovely, lovely books - one for my baby (BEST!), the family way (best! people can really relate to this), man and boy (pun bes!)). i want to find all of his books, ada like 4 more, man and wife, my favorite wife, and two non fiction books - one he co-authored with his exwife, and in 09, one more book will be published! horey!

ok, again, the weird thing is, as much as i love this book, saya tidak beli the ori copy. instead, i did a perfect-binded copy of it. why? sbb i want the white cover! the white cover (in picture) depicts all of the main characters, walaupun hanya dari belakang hehe, and at mph, or popular ka or mana2 ada jual, they used the grey copy, which shows some faces, and umm... those faces x sama ngan watak. x sama with terry, ray, leon..xbes. to me, it's important that i can imagine the characters the way they're described. so, sy buatla perfect-binding. at least perfect binding, so rupa pun macam the real book, just dlm ada cop library huhuhuh! sikpa. shh. hehehehe.

well the book was inspired from his own starting career as a music journalist. yea, that is why i love this book. if ure into music, u will love this book. tapi! not about current music or loads of crap music, sbb it was 1977. lebeh tepat lagi, buku ini sebenanya,a one whole night story. which is 16 august, 1977, the day that elvis died. haha i always loved any authors who wrote a-one-nite-story. time punk baruk angkat. time hippy style dah subside, because zaman beatles dah lepas. but then ada one character, ray, nya still dressed as a hippy, and very devoted to the beatles, and his assignment for that night, is to find john lennon, who is in town, for that night only. and yada yada yada, suma ada adventure masing2.

terry - spiked hair, oxfam jacket, boots., levi's yg sik cuci sejak beli and he reviews most of the new music at that time

leon, hmm leon wears trilby hat, yg lebeh2 kurang kedak topi fedora itu, and leon is actually belongs to a medium class family, tp lives at a homeless shelter, koatan passion nya tek. but biasala. darah muda, emo lebeh, apa2 pun lebeh, last2 pulang juak ke rumah.

ah yes, terry, ada watak girlfren lam story ini. Misty. dari the way she is built, i could pick an actress to play Misty if they made a movie from this book. i'd pick zooey deschanel. hehhe.

all and all, best sbb mmg byk adventure in that one night, yg made they grow up. the book is the basic picture of zaman drugs and rocknroll. love it. layan esp di saat2 aher. the first time i read this book is when i borrowed it from the library, and finished it in that day. besnya if can live in the 70s music scene. mesti bes kumpul2 duit, sbb want to buy all the vinyls. i love seeing organized vinyls. i think if until now we still use vinyls, prolly we would appreciate music better. yaka? i think la. if me la. lain org lain la pendapatnya hee.


side note: the movie that i love to watch again and again and again and again and..

i'm not there.
fuu. nangg bes. again, this is a 'music autobio' movie. and dari tajuk, dah tauk it is about bob dylan. his life. in this movie, if watched sambil lewa, mmg mcm belit2 n sik paham. tp if hayati mmg bes. because the director chose to have different actors play the different stages of dylan's life. actor suma layan2 juak. bale, ledger, gere, wishaw, and blanchett. and byk lagik. julianne moore pun ada, cameo by sonic youth's kim gordon pun ada in this movie. the best part is? blanchett plays bob dylan. surprisingly.. KEDAK!. nang pande macho indah cate blanchet. lalu ragu2 saya ngan sexuality saya. o jian o. hahahah buurrrak ajak. directed by todd haynes. 2007.

the first day

hari ini saya ingin cuba menulis dalam bahasa baku. jadi kepada yang membaca, baca lah dalam bahasa baku ye ya?
emm

ee boh jak. terus buntu akal saya. polah surat rasmi to jpa yg half a page pun 4 kali edit. kenak tetak dak mimah gik ya.

anyhoo, went to unimas today, to report duty, and to take 3-days leave.
tetapi itu di cancel, maybe di ganti next week, or raya aji week.
even report duty pun ada matters pelu main kirim2.
i wish posmen2 can fly.
huhuhuh.
tp if posmen2 can fly, mesti la saya apply dolokkk.
aa what else?
ok, so today, besides seeing my bosses and telling em im back, sy terus dpt serahan keja, n ari first juga sy terus minjam laptop ofis utk dibawa balek.
and saya juga menjadi penggembala kepada shinnie ku syg. sana sini tagg buwit amek awi tok tek oo.
hee.
den evening, went to spring, late lunch
and then wait for xaximie for a meet up @ big apple
snap2
(jian, jarik sapa lucu mcm miak sikpat bediri straight time perhimpunan hahahahhah)
den after aben, nengan jian meli otdog nya (bak kata bapak russel peters 'hordok' - with soft d) @ 1901, pasya part ways, n i sent shinnie home.
thx kuang kuit ngan mek today babe. mwah.

------------

i have a question.
what do u do, when u get multiple signs, all in one day.
u trusted urself in every decision u made.
and suddenly, when u let something out..
u realized, there is a leak.
that's when u realized, you are happy, but less happier than u used to be.
is that a hope? or something else? have i changed?
and when u woke up today, ur heart cant stop bedebar2.
until now.
and i never thought that one day i would end up thinking about this.
because i remembered i was so sure. & so determined.

maybe coincidence jak. yalah.plus me yg dtg loi2 juak miker pelik2 o. 'bait sik malu!'

fiffy

tajuk sikda kaitan.

tapi saya linduuuuuuu sgt2 sama adik saya.

p kakak boring aie.

mek duak dd jak tok

nasib dd ada.

dd dah tere main megik aie.

tadik anta sue blt nya siap molah megik lam moto gik ya.

lam gelap gik ya.

nya dah sleep ya. kakak nutup tb tek, ada indah trop kat tepi.

nang sekpat jaoh la.

lak nak ilek waterpront eh. narit2 mana dak melaya n omputeh k ngeso magik.

boh bingong, sik mekduak main d waterpront sambil make baju linkin park.

netok nya kaka mala make sora debid blaine fi.

ya kak madah kawu 'didi blank'. bukan 'debid blen'.

klak ko dtg lak, ada nya madah

'wanna see some magic?'

'pick a card'

nya make kad terop si piza netok.

kad terop kakak dah lusoh gila dah.

lusoh2 tok bok bes main nilit jodoh tok.

bah bah saya dah d kuching, sapa nak mintak tangga jalan crita dgn org nok di minat/d suka tek? ada halangan ka sik, ada masalah ka sik..

set epoinmen lok. hahah. nilit d sweekang. fieza? nieza? nora? to nora dtg kch pls. dah sampe call immediately pls. mun sik terais jak dari taman kakak itak. berekot mek ke choice ria kakya. kakya ta betandak britney blakang pintu.

TAPI!! nilit bole nilit, dgn syarat, lepas perut ada kenyang2 mee blacan (yerrr fieza).. ngan kuah nyam2 nya.

ngan telor padi half floating lam perut ya (nangg lihai makan sik bekerat).

mmh! ngenang ajak pun kecor2 za o. aek lio aa kecor2, boh njelar mata dolok ya. :P

mun sik d sweekang pun, di tempat nok ada signature hot chocolate (Venti please) ditambah ngan club sandwich k mek duak lynn kongsi oo lynn o *njelin fieza agik (tauk mek susah dah ati ktk ya ahahah sekdooo baaa, idar2 oo. p nunggu gaji mek nait lok aa)

lalala

yea im back :) hopefully for good. mudahan result ok. huhuh. eh salah, aminn.

this monday ill be reporting my duty, n amik cuti for a few days, n urus apa2 patut.

so, tadik we haf makan2 with my ahli mesyuarat tingkap yg telah saya tinggalkan 18 bulans.

byk juak 18 bulan ya. pat k duak igek baby. tauk ada bebanding bulan ngan pregnancy. ahahah.

nway, saya sudah rizep bilit kak fazlin yg cosy mosy itu, horey.

kak fazlin's going to UMP. huhu. we'll miss ya for shure. esp time main teka teki time pegi serikin o. masehhh gik i ingat teka teki itu.

hee. esok bole la stat muang debu rah kasut2.

mala k leparrr ('r' stail jian) ajak lamak tok tek.

oh, while on the plane, i snapped some cute clouds!

ok, obviously not this.

oh, and this, this is totally unrelated. tp jumpa lam buku going places lam flight.

Paul Smith Ankle Boot! aaaaa. sapa pat meli k i to nang kenak tium 500 kali.

nya tok nya. comel eh. if ada doraemon, kan boleh kita main swim2 on the clouds. hmm

(sapa2 ada macam komik siri ya tauk la nya)

this is my fav! macam dalam water! below was hutan n the greens, and the shadow of the clouds polah benda ya upa cam lam aek. ah ciptaan Allah!

ngaaaa fiezaaaa!

*note for sarawakians, ignore the words in brackets

hee

fieza lokk... main tag gamba kinek (skarang_jugak).
sannnn (pengsan/meroyan/gila & sewaktu dgnnya) urg nangga(nengok) mek netok (now). kalah lindsay dbah(bawah) ya hahahahh (hihihhi).

tp oleh kerana ditagged oleh one of blogger taygar. maka harus saya berlari laju2 nyapey(ncapai) tudong terdekat on camera n snap! tok(ini) hasel nya. sori a muka minyak2. kol 4.07am tok. gik(sedang/masih) layan molah(buat) esemen.



oo tebiut (sesuatu yg senget - utk konteks ini) indah (la pulakk...) lok.. kitak(awak) tek za. gaut2 alu mek. oklah. kedong tek nak (alang2 minum air biar smp berenang dan snorkeling). apa kata...

eh cekolok tesnap agik

ah bole la tok.





ya bok nya. ngan spek2 beminyak2. mek pun sitauk apa yg nyaman ya za. haha

ok. yang kena adalah..

felynn_faricia! (udah abis nama kau lynnn)
dyg norafizah!! (",) (,") *lari*
suriyaa! *berekot*
i n t a n!
.khaty.
linsharin@gmail.com!
apiz_mod!

rararawr woof woof! ;)

farah mok knak agik sik? hahahaha

okeh. abis nama bulak, nama bena, nama tunggah d umah, nama ciptaan saya, email pun ada kenak. hee2. polah aa

ehh instructions lupa gua (asa samseng):

1. Take a recent picture of yourself OR take a picture of yourself right now

2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair... just take a picture. (ok yg make tudong bole berekot now n capei tudong tedekat, 1, 2, 3!!!)

3. Post that picture with NO editing. no edit

4. Post these instructions with your picture.

5. Tag  people to do this.

ok sambong esemen lok.

*note: yg in brackets are some words for my non-swakian friends. pandai2 la ganti aa.
then gi komen guna bahasa swak. :D

3D

aaaa kit palak becarik 3D stuff with DirectX n C++ hell.
haruskah ada esemen before ku blt?

ku blt sabtu.
maka


HARUSKAH?

aaa
sakit kepale le

neu yay-out *done*

yey, finally im on my way to create my own layout.
thish time it wiw be simple.
no more blacks for me.
white background now.
i just put up the banner.
on my way creating the background n side stuff.

just wait! :)
_______________________

yey da abenn hee.
puas ati lok. :)
ini baru sayya..
hope u guys like it^

penings

uu headache. why o?
nak kata x mam, 2,3 kali mam today.
excitedla ckit today cuz i have my fav songs playing in winamp.
berjaya juak donlod ventho no free versions in the net.
freeee jak maok ho?

want to know how i got all my songs on the net?
go to youtube, and youtubed it. sometimes in youtube we can find all those yg ares/limewire x jumpa.
when jumpa, go >here< to extract the mp3 audio from the video.
download the mp3.
yaa sudah ada mp3 nyaaa!
maka ada sudah lagu californiasun,nuday,n millionfaces ku.
sapa mbak? hm. cs - jem, nd - kate havnenik, mf- paolo nutini.
lagu paolo nutini cun2 suma nya!

boring2 jap before thinking bout playing with the camera.
been so long since the last time muley2 camera.
in a few days this pc is going to be sold, so berposingla kita lala.

boring mala amik separas n dari atas. apa kata aku tundok kali ini

muleyy holga ku sayang.cidak bunyi hahah. btw, tangan saya kedak tangan onglakiii!!!!!! !damn

*poof

i wanted to do the last esemen, but where the hell is my 3ds cd o? ila, aritu kite letak mane eh.? yalah kita bilit dah tunggang tebalit. nak pack all the stuff, pun mcm adohh hey dont know where to start!

*uh! hak! huh! yak! mmh! nga! hah!*

lak ta becita gik.
Fact #1 - top 3 healthier options from fast food companies - 1. McD, 2. Burger King, 3. KFC (tp di NZ la, malaysia tok sik sure hohoh)
Source

Listening To: California Sun

when should i go home?

last presentation, 20th.
hm.
21st?
22nd?

sem abis on 24th.
when?
dah la barang cam byk.
hm.

21st?
22nd?
23rd?

help me decide :/

choki-choki

rasa bosan today.
asa nak ngamok2 ada juak.
asa nak nyepak2 ada juak.
bukan boring sikda keja.
boring nok ngesak ati.

!damn

what i love most about photography and art

photography and art to me is like fashion. we can choose to express ourselves in our own way. our own creativity. it is full with experiments. for me, although i am not a professional photographer, i love to get inspired and try new stuff. i like portraits, and i want to achieve variety through portraits. here i have some ideas, but i don't have the props to go with it. i have to take pictures with my scarves, as i am a tudung-clad girl, but i didn't bring that many scarves for me to take pictures. otherwise everything will pretty much look the same. photography is one way for me to release my stress, to show my inner emotion, or just to have fun. lately i tried to take some serious themes, like the pic here, and it is hard for me to even make a good serious face. it teaches us to dig the emotion from inside, to portray it outside. maybe that's why the girls in ANTM feel irritated when they were yelled by the art director. i just cant wait to go back home. so i can practice with my siblings, and also my babes! :)

Be Free!!

Picture: "We can't please everyone" by dariagraphy©

tribal

i want to do some tutorials on photoshop. hm. would you guys like that? should i put it in another blog or just here.. just some basic2 stuff. im not that good anyway. by the way, try to check out some menu in the above pic. im just trying some stuff. he. ;)

Portrait Project III: The Prima Donna

"The Prima Donna" by dariagraphy©

She is the first lady
She is egotistical
She is irritable
She is self-indulgent
but she is the superstar

although she's obnoxious
although she's temperamental
although she's unreasonable
u cannot do without her
because she is irreplaceable
because she is

The Prima Donna

what do you want be?

what do you want be if you're not who you are now? me, i want to be:

a fashion designer/entrepreneur
i wanna design clothes.
im tired of clothes that i couldnt fit in.
i want to wear clothes that fits me, not trying hard to fit into one.
i want to design boots.
i want to design my own jeans.
i want to wear my own creation.
i want to be original.

so, what bout you?

5 things you know about me (after reading this)

ive been tagged by lynn a week ago, and i havent got to it yet. so these are 10 more things that you will learn about me. but im cutting down. only 5 for me. im afraid ill reveal the other side :O

ONE it took me one whole week to get over Jangan Pandang Belakang. luckily pierre andre didnt drive a kelisa in that movie. huhuh

TWO im bad at showing/expressing my subtle emotions. i might seem like i dont care, but i do

THREE i can read minds and i can put thoughts in people's mind. shinnie selalu jadi mangsa. :D

FOUR i can tilit jodoh haha

FIVE i have low self esteem. ive been cheated by assholes twice.

im a grown up

my feet is suffering from blisters again. damn, seems like everything is making my feet worse. the thing is, i got these blisters from flip flops! i have been wearing flip flops my whole life, and my feet have never gotten any of these small, ugly, rounded, red-dish little stuff that will end up looking still small, still ugly, still kind of rounded but a bit distorted, but brown-ish this time, which is making them look uglier! huhuhu. and i have this rubber shoes, that i have been wearing for almost 1.5 yrs now, and for 10 months my feet are fine, but after that, blisters too! aren't they supposed to be like, looser? more comfortable? this year is the first year im experiencing blisters, i have never gotten them before, albeit im wearing a-size-smaller shoes, non comfortable shoes, and my favourite osaki slippers which i wore everywhere i go including shopping malls (except when im going out with the babes, im afraid they'll be embarassed of me).

hmm. is it me? is it our body? im no longer young and 'dangerous', well uh, still quite young & quite 'dangerous', but you know, it's like our body is not fresh and tight and white(?) like it used to be. i think 10% of it is true, that as we get older, our skin age too and seeing my lifestyle this year, im not as healthy as i was, so i guess it kinda effects my skin too. that's why they say (who are 'they' btw) :

• after 25, our metabolism is getting slower/lower (hence my ongoing inch-loss challenge)

• when we were young, we learn and adapt skills very quickly

• when we were young, we care less about the everything else, and the biggest problems were like 'how to make my crush see me', 'why didnt he take me to the prom', 'wow this guy is cute & i want to add him in ms/fs/fb etc and the biggest responsibility was 'study hard, get good grades meaning will get good job (which is not necessarily true)', but when we reach adulthood, we care, about life, friends, family, job, money, serious relationships, future, what else, name it. and the biggest problems are orbiting these things. responsibilities, obligations. the point is we grow up. (hence the wrinkle/worry lines - but i got my wrinkles/lines from laughing a lot when i was younger. :D

but adulthood is not that bad though, it is very, very interesting world. no more mommy and daddy dealing for us, we are on our own. we experience power. but no matter our age is, keep our hearts young, take care of yourself, be healthy, look younger.

and i will try to take care of my feet. (BioOil is very effective on the scars).

bedungkedunk!

wishlists

"wishlist" by dariagraphy©

hmmm..to be continued..

i wish

i wish i have amnesia
so i can forget all the lies
so i can forget all the cries

i wish im not intuitive
so i wont feel sorry for myself
so i wont feel pathetic

i wish im always ...
so..
so..

:(

imperfection photographed

i took some time off today, taking pictures, i mean taking self portraits. nothing good, but these are my faves. the session is called 'imperfection photographed'. i chose this title 'cause i dont really like some features of my face, but i am grateful for what i have. everyone is beautiful in their own way. im not a model anyway, so.. hehe.

props - selendang, skaf (sik nampak) n my cheap black ring

gear - digicam sony, 4.1megapix

my favourite show

i wandered around youtube watching my fav music videos, interviews on ellen & jimmy kimmel and somehow i ended up on That 70's show bloopers. huhu. i miss that show so much, i love them all esp kelso and hyde, and fez, and donna and jackie, ahh pendek kata everyone! i once had full episodes of season 1-7, and i truly, TRULY valued my collection and i was about to collect season 8, which was the final season. but......

my ex lost the cds (back then we only burned stuff in cds). he did not even know about that show when i introduced it to him, and at first he was not interested, 'byk gilak klaka' katanya tek, but after a while, he likes it very very much, (as if he knows efrything). uhh. after the breakup, i told him i want all my stuff back, whereby actually i wanted my cds back. my music, my videos, especially my 70's show. but i only got 3 cds out of everything!!! NE AGIK NOK LAIN!!

damn. of all things that he had done, the cheating and the bad treatment, i finally forgave him, but the only thing that i still resent (yup sampei kinektok) is that he lost all of my 70s show collection. sine nak carik gk tok? :( sheesh.

boring tuesday

lonely day

as a master student (which is not great anyway), i often felt lonely here. dahla sikda kawan, bilit sorang2, ingat tek dah sorang2 camtok, rajin sikit molah keja, p sama juak duhal. anyway, i miss a lot of ppl when im lonely. jaik ati bila chat lawak2 ngan kawan2 time tgh mlm, tetak sorang kat sitok. mun d umah ada juak mak mek klua dr balit n nyk 'panama tetak ko ya?'. hehehe. i cant wait to finish this thing. tomorrow ill be presenting my work (which is in my own opinion is a load of crap, ntahla i dont know, dont ask what or why). i think my motivation has gone downhill lately. ill update on how my presentation goes tomorrow. *cross fingers* ah nabes! huhu. anyways, when i miss ppl, i will miss my babes and my family the most. esp my bro n my sis. this is my fav picture of my sis kat umah usu, cun nya make ju ijo, n dindin umah usu is painted the same shade of green, so i made her stand and pose at the wall. isnt she pwetty? :)

Tip #12: Tidur di muka pintu, alamat dilangkah hantu
ulasan: i think actually, takut ditinjak (dipijak) oleh urg nok (yang) mukak pintu. sapa nyuroh tdo pan pintu? @_@ pasya the angry dialog will be like: "antuuu juak ko tok ninjak aku tgh tido, sikpat nangga urg senang ka?" and that's where the 'hantu' came from.

long.time.no.see

hey guys. been a while. its not that i dont want to update, its just because i cant update, ive been seriously busy. but i can promise you, ill be back regularly, after tomorrow. after tomorrow. yeah.

heyu! im back!

helo all, me backie!

i have half of my pressure off me, BUT, only half, but it felt good anyway. i havent had anything interesting during my away mode, and the crying post below was nothing. i was challenged, and my motivation was way underwater. so um, tomorrow im gonna go home for raya holidays, yea, yay me, but there will be alot of stuff waiting to be done. but im happy nonetheless, the chances to see familiar faces all over again. ah, best eh. anyway, to update:

• i have a new toy, with very2 snazzy n comel bag for it (gamba post later)




• i have some new problems (yeah everybody does)




• i have been tagged! *see below

1. Nama timangan - Nurrul, telescope, daria, oon, babe, nuwul, zawiyah (hmm)

2. Saya seorang yang - sama seperti wanita di dalam buku, seperti gadis di dalam lagu

3. Insan2 teristimewa- my family, my babes, and you know who you are (sapa² bole ngakuk here ok ;) )

4. Makanan -- ntahla. i dont want to think too much about food.

5. Favourite colour -- multicolor, technicolor, awkward pairings that look good

6. Favourite song -- the ones i listen

7. Benda yang membuat anda stress -- whoa, this is epic. im stressful lately, really.

8. 3 benda dalam wallet -- benda keras n benda lembut (pande² pk ahaha)

9. Kali terakhir menangis beriya-iya-- couple of days ago. someone was pulling my leg.

10. Saya dengan sukacitanya nak tag kawan kawan yg kat bawah ni. Tapi kalau dah pernah buat soalan atas ni, tak perlulah.
- fieza
- lynn
- shinnie
- xaximie

Listening to: Sunrise Comes too Soon

Mood: restless/excited/high

[away mode]

i'll be away for a while k? but! watch this space cos i wont be away too long :)

aspirin mask

hellu again~

today i am so happy, i spring cleaned my room, and i have updated my to do list, on my project and on my life (organisasi okey). and after settling down, mandik² suma, i started my exfoliation regime, dgn menggunakan aspirin mask. it is a good exfoliator/mask for my face, i have tried it many times, and it worked really well for my skin. i will share with you on how to do this yourself, and maybe some of you already know this stuff from some famous beauty bloggers ( i got this from them too, and decided to try it myself), so here are the stuff you need:

aspirin - saya menggunakan jenama Disprin, boleh didapati di Guardian.
note: MUST use the non-coated aspirin, and tolong hanya guna aspirin k? paracetamol & such itu bukan.

honey/madu - yang digunakan untuk makan² itu, ye²


STEP1: ambil beberapa biji aspirin, saya biasa menggunakan 3 biji (jgn lebih dari 5 biji please), dan basahkan dengan 3 drops of water for each aspirin. the aspirin akan men-dissolve-kan diri sendiri seperti gambarajah di bawah.

STEP2: titiskan madu ke dalam aspirin yg telah cair tadi, dan gaulkan (mcm bunyi resipi indah lok huhu)


STEP3: sapukan ke wajah (ceywah. adoh heh hahaha), dan biarkan selama 10minit.

STEP4: setelah tamat 10minit, cuci muka dgn air. semasa mencuci, pastikan anda mengambil kesempatan untuk meng-exfoliate-kan wajah anda dengan menggosok mask tersebut di wajah anda, especially di bahagian yang kasar (spt sy: bahagian pipi)

STEP5: sapukan toner ke muka, diikuti dgn mosturizer.

my result: after using this mask for quite some time (even after the first time!), i felt a huge difference on my skin, before this, i have a problem with my cheek (cheekbone area), which is a little bit kasar, so this aspirin mask is somehow a good exfoliator for me. ia menanggalkan sel sel mati di muka anda (ayat diblakang produk kecantikan hahahaha).

note:
1. kepada sesiapa yang allergic dengan aspirin, anda dilarang untuk mencuba mask ini, and kepada sesiapa yang allergic to honey/madu, anda boleh menggunakan mask ini tanpa madu.

2. if you have dry skin, do not do this too many times per week. anda tau keadaan kulit anda, jadi pandey2 la adjust :)

3. if you do not know whether you are allergic or not, (for me i always do this), try first di lengan anda. if got rash/redness, maybe you are allergic.

SELAMAT MENCUBA~ :)

i've been tagged!

1. What were you doing 5 years ago?
- study penuh kemalasan dan mencuci mata

2. What were the 5 things on your to do list today?
sbb jam dah kol 1030pm, so i guess:

- duduk pan pc
- carik inspirasi to not be lazy *tsk*
- lompat lompat
- saho
- tdo awal esok ada klas (mun tdo awal la)

3. What are 5 snacks that you enjoy?
- roti celup giant ya
- krekers gula/plain
- buah semangka
- roti mighty white rasa ikan bilis
- mena kata kau lynn - hiro choc cake nok 30sen ya *mmh!*

4. What are 5 jobs you've had?-
- keja kedei buku (bos nya tsk tsk tsk)
- waitress kingtop
- jual kueh bulan posa
- tutor unimas
- menjadi babe yg sewel

5. 5 ppl I want to tag
- babe xaximie
- babe shinnie
- iman
- jackal
- noa

oki! buat sarveyyy! :P

same old, same old

hm. what am i gonna eat for my sungkey today? this is the worst puasa ive ever been in. lotsa problems. and i kinda feel sluggish today. maybe my ass is getting heavier. maybe i feel anton because i did not have my sahur this morning. i only drank a glass of aek mati, (then i went to pee!!). need to go buy some biscuits or roti or apa² k sahur tonite. duit agik. duit duit duit haiya. i feel like venting but it is puasa month, so, um.. yeah. there is nothing on my fon, and the room is tiba² panas today, website subject network sikpat dibukak bukak gik dari ariya and i havent touch my project today. see. pure laziness. all i did was goleng2 . damn i feel useless.

pull the trigger

its the fifth ramadhan....

time flies so fast :(

i drank neslo (kopi 3in1 + milo 3n1) and celup2 with that yummy roti for sahor.
huhu. this is when i miss home very much. kof kof!

4th ramadhan

i dont know why i pooped a lot today. i miss my sahur in the morning. but i ate roti bom before i terslept. which is around 1 plus la. i was frustrated to see it was 840am when i woke up. mmh! but after class, i pooped like a lot! huhu. i think roti 'bom' exploded! BOOM!

to be continued....


continued!

so today is basically the best sungkey day (in this 4 days). finally i get to taste/eat my own nasi ambang! hihi. yummy! i sungkey-ed @ ila's house today, as the delishesh nasi ambang stall is near her house. oof!

nway, i have a short session of loya burok with babe xaximie, and i gave her a teka teki:

....

daria: babe

daria: mek nyingit badan tek

daria: cuba tekak pahal

xaximie: kentut!!!

daria: Hhahaha

xaximie: puffftttt

daria: ya betolll

daria: hahahhaha

....

jus one guess hoho. i bet everyone can answer the same thing! sbb.... cam suma jak gia nak :P

Tip #10: mun nak kentut singitkan badan, sak bau sik perap lam kusi, or, lam slua, lak beliang mukak slua tiba2 ada bawu *belik2 mata* . kakya miker nak pelik2 melimpas.. maka bulan posa suma masok prison break benda² itu. *tetak kenyang*

hari ini

3rd ramadhan


bought nasik kerabu today, malangnya salah beli, so sik nyamannnn, sik cukup birruuuu (ada indah jd isu) dan lain2. so sik abis mam tek. bencik na juak membazer eh. so i just put it down there, open table for the kittens. the donuts that i bought are also 'hard-rock', so ergh. sik bes eh muang duit. the only thing yg nyaman today was, my aek jagong. nyum. for sahur this morning i ate roti bom. i think i need my detox again. byk benda kotors masok sudah.

boom!

i miss

it's weird when you study, you will miss working, and if you work, you want to further your study. but it's clear to me now. i love working more.

brighter than sunshine

heyu~

so my menu for today,

2nd ramadhan

saho: milo, celup with roti2
sungkey: spegeti (erk) + salad + mint tea

today ila said my arms looked smaller. oof oof! :P
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these days, i love listening to 'brighter than sunshine' , by aqualung. the lyrics are very nice, and the chords are easy. hmmm *garu garu dagu*

p/s: i think this would be my new layout for a while. :)

update

for my weight loss challenge update, this ramadhan, i have loosen a few rules for myself. i will eat rice or mee every other day during sungkey/berbuka, and ill eat something else for the alternate days. for sahur, ill take carbs, so ill have the energy for the next day, and plenty plenty of water. im thinking of taking trudetox this ramadhan. as the fasting itself is an act of detoxification, why not help the process right? and sempena ramadhan, ill list out what i ate/baham during bebuka n sahur, so i can monitor myself.

1st ramadhan

sahur - maggi goreng - ate half, appetite brek tgh jalan

sungkey - nasik putih with ayam panggang, aek jagong

menu for today will be updated later. i think i wanna change the name of the challenge. let's call it inch-loss-challenge.it looks less 'heavier' nyehehehe. nak o?

virgin roll

i've developed the virgin roll of my holga 135BC, and yea, my first roll wasn't that great, as i expected, but i do have some favs. i can see the vignetting in the pictures that i snapped (notice the black corners), and somehow the vignetting gave my pictures a moody and mystery value, like a house on a hill, something like that. the multiple exposures are not so bad themselves. so for the first roll, i dont have any theme, i just snapped all over just to test drive the camera :) a couple of the shots for you here, but you can see more in my flickr.

halftone

i have nothing to do (actually a lot) and i couldnt sleep. so i guess ill do what i always do when im not in the mood for work. this is my first attempt to halftone pattern pop art. and i know it is not perfect and not yet enhanced to 'line art pop art', but i kinda like it. it's a picture of my bro and my sis. will try to do the line art enhancement to make it more realistic comically. :)

i dont know if these pics will be best viewed on white or on black, so ill just put them both anyway

well this is um.. i dont know what do we call this, but i was just playing around with silhouettes, but i came up with this. hope you guys like it like i do. huhu.